I don't really like writing these kinds of journals, but it's been bothering me for a while. I don't expect anybody to read this and I'm really sorry for spamming you but this is probably the only place I can write all that stuff to get them off my chest for a moment atleast.
Almost everything is going wrong lately. I didn't manage to find any interesting school I could have gone to after high school so I've been home all this time. I also can't get any job because I have to take care of my little sister when my parents are working. My tablet broke some time ago. I got a new one and it's not as good as I expected. Drawing on it feels just terrible, which means all the money I saved up was pretty much wasted.
I have A LOT of time now. And all I do is spending it just thinking I should do something. But I never do. Lately I've been dreaming about becoming good enough to start a youtube channel, but it's never going to happen. I don't care about popularity, I just want to be happy with what I do, and I'm not. So considering all that I decided that I'm going to give up dA for some time. I will get back when I get to the point that drawing is a pleasure, not punishment. I want to enjoy doing it again.
I will still post some stuff on my facebook fanpage sometimes. I'm a bit more comfortable with posting anything there.
Once again I'm sorry for spamming you and if anybody read this - many thanks in advance
Have a nice day/night, bye for now